Desires of the heart

I want to trust and love without fear and hesitation
I want those around me to know how much I care
I want to let them into the depths of my heart
and be let into theirs without anxiety and judgement
I want to smile often and cry without shame
I want to share others happiness and sorrow
I want to approach strangers unafraid
and depart joy and hope into their lives
I no longer want to conform to this detached generation
Instead I want to live and love

Maybe someday I should read Don't Waste Your Life

I have done nothing productive today, except for an hour or so of reading. Which an hour out of the 16 is not enough to redeem the day. And to tell the truth I have only been awake for the last 10 hours, and since it is now only 9 pm, you can see I slept away the morning. To my defense my night's "rest" was interrupted constantly with nightmarish like dreams. Mere excuses. My lack of productivity might be excusable if today was an anomaly, however that is not the case. I often think the same thought at the end of the day (and throughout the day for that matter) and the same thought is: wow, what a waste of a day. Which has me thinking, if I often think this same thought day after day can I not come to the conclusion that thus far I have been wasting my life? Yet, even the most "productive" of people could have wasted their lives. Is productivity a relative term then? No I do not think it is. For if we are following God then what we do or do not do, I believe has to be productive. And though I do not always follow the Lord well I do however have a relationship with Him and strive to serve Him. And therefore I may in fact waste some of my hours and some of my days, but with a heart full of repentance, my life is not wasted.

It is the end of May and I need to fulfill my quota

Chelsea has not written on her blog for a long time.

loyalty

I am considering becoming more loyal to this blog. I will try to take baby steps and instead of visiting it twice a year I will come and post something at least twice a month and after that maybe twice a week and then if I get super ambitious and have nothing better to do with my time I will shoot for twice a day! But baby steps first. So month of May you are half way there. Of course it is bad timing to start being more faithful since I have the disadvantage of not having internet access at home..... well we will see .....

Hey look I still have a blog